Almost

 I see you everywhere, everyday.

Your hair, your smile, the way

you walk I hear you talking

 just beyond the scope of senses.

Whispering grief relentless.

It's just

I see you everywhere, everyday 

in passing cars too far away

for seeing to be certainty.

That it was you. I’m never sure. 

I know it makes me miss you more

for

I see you everywhere, everyday.

Smoke curling over ashtray

warm. Your jacket cold, unworn.

You took this journey defenceless.

Cumulonimbus portentous.

but

I see you everywhere, everyday.

Shoulders disappear through doorways 

in the distance. My resistance 

to reality acceptance strengthens 

Credence of multidimensions

because 

I see you everywhere, everyday.

It's weirdish hide and seek we play.

Between these worlds unseen

I slip and slide to find some comfort

but remain with pain encumbered.

Man,

I see you everywhere, everyday.

Gratitude’s debts remain unpaid

immured and uninsured

but mutual as our own destruction 

despite heroic harm obstruction.

Now,

I see you everywhere, everyday.

I hear the words you cannot say

mostly evoked by echoes ghostly.

You'll never forget, always forgive

and in the other timeline live





Squalour

 My processes lag,

Stifling the clanging of cogitative mechanism.

Passing phrases through gates;

Expression. Intention. Undercurrent. Relativism.

Comprehension comes too late.

Contempt cavorting in corporate catchphrases,

Sneering veneers revealed in seething facsimile of a smile. 

Earnest enquiry forms faux ami in translation, mistaken erosion of foundations fragile. 

Perturbed, perplexed and pessimistic I sit.

And remember fondly the simplicity 

of squalour.